Witnessing Addiction Mind

This is an excerpt of incredible personal transformation work done by a woman who agreed to let it be published (my suggestions in italics): What am I addicted to? Sex? Attention? Promises? What if all gaslighting and manipulative behaviors stopped tomorrow, what would change? Trust might have a chance again. But do I have to "act as if" this isn't really happening in order to get rid of it? Do I have to pretend these bastards are not fully conscious of what they are doing when they lie to me...